13 March 2012 Leave a Comment
in Babies
Been pretty busy. Been some stupid errors when I tried converting the site over. Hopefully I get this fixed soon. Stay tuned!!!
I haven’t blogged since December
01 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in General
I haven’t blogged since December. (Ya, I know that I already said that) Some say that I have lost my mind. Others said that I went crazy and have been locked up because I thought my neighbors were zombies. They’re not. There are rumors that I have been so out of it, that I had amnesia. I would like to say that some of these things are true, but mostly it’s just nonsense. However, today I think I am really going crazy. I keep hearing this calming music playing in the house at very low-level. I keep stopping what I’m doing and walk quietly around, trying to find the source. No luck. I did this twice before I had to leave for an appointment. I get home and I am checking my email and i hear it again. So, I quietly tip-toe through the house, stopping in each room to try and see where it’s coming from. Not in baby girl’s room. Not in Jonas’s room. Not in my room, the bathroom or the kitchen. I am left standing in the living room, still hearing the music, but now after checking everywhere, I still can’t find the source. It stops. All is silent now. I go back to the computer and close out my email and there in the middle of my screen was a small pop-up ad that was playing the music on repeat. And….. I’m back. Also dad's business is going well. Seems to be growing and he's been pretty busy. Wishing him the best.
Christmas time and Emotions
05 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
in Christmas
I love this time of year. Decorating and singing carols. But why does my happy time have to always be interrupted by horrible situations. I always feel imbalanced, but the month of december really throws me off. There are WAY too many birthdays and deaths. I am emotionally drained. I want this time of year to be magical, especially for my children. I hope that they have such a wonderful holiday that they become spoiled. I can deal with that. I can’t deal with all of these deaths and birthdays combined. Plus my dad is starting this new business for his real estate company. It's about property records or something. Either way his real estate company is doing well which has been good for the kids this year.I hope that my children never catch on to my holiday love/hate relationship. I want them to always be innocent, until it is necessary for them to understand the evils of this world. This holiday is such a catch-22 for me. I love celebrating, but it comes with a price.
I hope to find:
balance
faith
holiday cheer
magic for my children
to find the completeness of both birth and death
hope
52 Photos Project: A time to share {twinkling lights}
02 Dec 2011 4 Comments
in Projects
I recently had a holiday photo session for a friend of mine. I knew I wanted to use the strands of lights, but my vision was not this. I am so glad! I am in love with picture. I makes me want to believe in santa, magic and innocence.
Karma…
29 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Projects
I know that I am due a little bit of karmic payback for these past few weeks. I am bracing myself. But, even knowing that karma is coming to get me, I still did not steal that chicks photo.
I don’t really know what else to say………..
Rock the Shot November Photo Challenge: Family
29 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Photos
I love this picture. There is something magical when a 7-year-old boy and 2-year-old girl can enjoy the same thing. For me, it represents family because of the sisterly and brother bond. It is unbreakable. They might fight and scream at each other, but their love for one another is like nothing else on this earth.
Big Brother, Little Sister <3
I want this now!!!
27 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Projects
I made Jason go to three different thrift stores yesterday just to try and find this skirt. Of course, we came up short. But I have not lost all hope yet. Over at Welcome to the Good Life, she posted her winning, homemade outfit. It won the dress design contest at Shabby Apple. She too a basic, white cotton skirt and turned it into a fabulous dress. I HAVE TO HAVE IT!
white pleated skirt
add the finished product
Please head over to Welcome to the Goolife.net for the tutorial. She even has one for the necklace!
best wine ever!!! okay, that might be a bit extreme, but…
04 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Food
I found this amazing wine for only $4 at Aldi. I know what you are thinking, $4 wine??? It is some of the best white wine that I have ever had and I just came back from Italy. It is from South Africa and before you start thinking all blood diamond, it is actually a certified product of integrity and sustainability. If you ever come across it, I highly recommend it. It’s a little on the sweet side, but not overly sweet. Just really good.
Chaza-moscato
my daughter and her room
04 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Decor
I haven’t blogged in a while. I have been WAY too busy. But today, I felt compelled.
My daughter is two. Everyone else I know lets their children play in their room at this age. For some reason, I haven’t. We have always kept the door closed. I’m not sure why. But today was the day. I made a big mom step and opened up her room and put lots of toys in it and let her run free. There were never really toys in there to begin with, they were in the playroom. So, I just always kept the door shut. Why I haven’t done this before, I have known idea. It’s amazing. She loves it. I can get work done. Perhaps, if I was a psychologist, there may be some deep, in my subconscious, I was afraid of letting my baby girl go and be a big girl. Or, since she does think that she belongs to Cirque du Soleil, I was worried that I would find her on top of her dresser or hanging from the clothes bar in her closet. Now there is no turning back and I happy that I FINALLY made this choice.
the terrible two’s
14 Oct 2011 1 Comment
in Babies
Two years ago today, about an hour from now, I gave birth to my baby girl simone. Happy Birthday! These last two weeks have been the weeks from hell for me. Not just her, everything. It is my graduate school midterms, my MA candidacy review, photography stuff, heritage center work, my anniversary and simone’s birthday party. Not to mention all the little things in between- wife, mother to 2 kids, friend, etc… So, yes, I have been SO STRESSED OUT!!!!! My sweet baby girl just rounds out the equation.
She has become my mini me. Everyone knew it would happen and now it is true. My mom wonders how she can drive me so crazy, well she then has to be reminded that wasn’t a stay-at-home mom. Throw in all the other stuff and yeah, my daughter drives me crazy sometimes. She has started following me around, no less then 6 inches away, but mostly on top of my lap at the computer where I do the majority of my work. Can you type a 15 page paper with footnotes, endnotes and an annotated bibliography comparing the early USSR Stalin and Monet’s blue period ??? Ok, I really wasn’t typing that paper, but come on. If one person out there doesn’t think that a smaller, cuter version of me mimicking EVERYTHING they do all day long isn’t annoying, then let me come and spend one full day with you. I bet that I can change your mind.
I really wanted to write for her birthday: two years ago, I gave birth….. Did you get the “I” part? So, it’s practically my birthday too. Or is it too early to bust out the old phrase, “I brought you into this world, and I can take you out.” That phrase never scared me and I would never say it. Ok maybe never. Oh about the part where one day, I will look back at these moments and cherish them because one day, you won’t want anything to do with me. Haha. I find that really hard to believe that yesterday will go down in the “I will cherish this day forever” memory book.
OK. OK. enough ranting.
Dear Simone,
I do love you baby girl. Very much. I don’t want you to ever think that I don’t. I know that you are just doing what every 2 year old does and I will look back and love this time with you. You are amazing and couldn’t imagine my life without you. And although lately, you have been annoying the shit out of me, I find it a form of flattery that you want to be just like mommy. I wish you a long, healthy and nothing less than amazing life. And if you do want to be like mommy, remember school can be a full-time job 
I can’t wait to see you in your special birthday outfit tomorrow and hope that you have great time celebrating with everyone tomorrow.
love you to the moon and back,
mom
*don’t push me….I hear boarding school isn’t that bad….just kidding!!!
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